It's positive! I am pregnant! Dave and I took the test Tuesday, and it was definitely positive. Ok...so I tested last weekend too, and it came out positive so I was pretty sure I was pregnant, but I wanted Dave to be part of it. Based on all the different dates, I think I am about 4-5 weeks along, which puts my due date around Sept 25th. Pretty good timing as far as Dave's travel schedule. He usually has some shows in Oct, but not near like the spring. Mom's usually travels a lot in Sept & Oct which isn't great, but we will make due. I am excited & nervous. I kind of forget all the feelings that come with pregnancy, even though it has only been 3 years ago! The nervousness of miscarriage, the fear of labor, the wondering if there are any problems with the baby. Just so many thoughts....

Not sure when we will tell everyone, probably sometime next month. Maybe J's birthday party.

Other than that, not much new. Job is still up in the air, although I am pretty sure it is a no-go. Cyndee emailed me Thursday to say Eunice said no exception, but oddly enough, no one had talked with Evan! So Evan said he was going to talk with Dave G and get back with me. And I haven't heard anything yet. Disappointing because I had got myself excited about the job, and now that it won't work it out, it has me realizing how many things I am frustrated with in my current position. I feel like there is so much stuff to do and I am so tired of holding Laura's hand and listening to all of her whining and carrying on. Things seem to slip through the cracks and I just can't give the attention to things that I need to. I am constantly just staying about the water, but never get to the "other" things I need to. But, since I won't get the other job, this is where I am stuck, so I might as well make the best of it. I am DREADING the 5010 project which is already behind schedule. I am a feeling it is going to be a nightmare.

I was pretty worthless today. Didn't do much of anything, which not too happy about. Why or why am I so lazy?!?! I just can not get a grip on it. I should be productive and instead I sit here and waste time. And once I have two kids to chase around, I will have to get my ass in gear.